Monday, December 6, 2010

aPe YaNg PerLu SaYa LaKuKaN

You ask me how my day was as if it is same everyday
I say Im okay but you really dont know how I feel
Do you think i’ll be okay without you?
Are you okay without me?
The world without you is so hard that I blame myself for still breathing.

What should I do? Even now, I live each painful days because of your words
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Are you living each day painfully like I am?
You and me

Are we too late? Do we not have a chance?
I still think about you and you might know this
Finally is it this? Are we going to end like this? Is it okay with you?
I dont think I can do it. The love I find with you, I wont find it anywhere even if I die.

What should I do? If it isnt you no one else can hold my heart
Please hold me. And you know that even though the whole world tries to
No one can erase your memories. So please hold me

Friday, December 3, 2010

Pain, Tears, Cry, Laugh...everyday....

If I say that I’m in pain,
I’m scared that I’ll really be in pain..
If I say that I’m sad,
I’m scared that I will shed my tears…
Why don’t I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh……??
But people ask me why I’m crying….

Everyday I cry, I smile...
Cry then smile again….
What’s wrong with me..???
Why do I do this repeatedly..??
Can’t different between bottles of vinegar and mineral water…
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating…
I write your name over and over on a piece of paper…
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go…
I long for you, I hold on to my cell phone and let it go…
My eyes are filling up with tears again..
This separation between us…

Let’s smile..
Like couples in dramas…
Let’s smile..
Like the title of your blog….
Let’s smile…
Happy like in past….